Never known the mind could disturb one that much. I am happy, I am scared to death, I am smiling, I am damn annoyed, I am day (and night) dreaming.
I think the nicest thing that could happen is happening and I am upset as hardly ever before. I could move mountains, climb the Everest and rescue some frozen ones on the way back… but I don’t manage a thing. I will do anything and know it IS good that way, still I think I’ll do the wrong thing.
I know everything will work out fine just can’t believe it. I have shown my most intimate side but am more shielded than ever before. Shielded. Damn shielded. I want to be personal and tell anyone everything, just think no one should know.
All this crosses my mind at any time anyday lately. Some thoughts sometimes only seconds. This is a terrific ride. It is frigging scary, but at the same time I know do hope it will be the best ever happened.
Just… I am that fucking scared.
Everything seemed to go fine. Then it suddenly collapsed. To get even better. I don’t want to live another low in this, I want it to get better all the time.
If you are new to this blog, you probably have followed my link somewhere and I welcome you to one of my most abstractly written posts so far. Or do you know what is going on? I could imagine you do. :-P
3 have made me smarter ↓
1 justdawn // Sep 8, 2006 at 6:02 pm// View all comments by justdawn//
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I usually leave here not knowing what you are talking about…and yet I come back…again and again;)
2 Danalyn // Sep 8, 2006 at 9:24 pm// View all comments by Danalyn//
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she took the words right outta my mouth. ;)
3 Franky // Sep 8, 2006 at 9:29 pm// View all comments by Franky//
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:D