Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.
Charles R. Swindoll, evangelical christian pastor.
It’s a mess, a total mess. I want to delete everything and step out here. Step out everywhere. People have told me I should be more personal here. Hell yeah, I’ll have 5 readers than.
Now I got 400 stalkers daily, all too scared to leave a comment.
I got no clue what to do. Everything is a fucking mess. I started something. I opened myself. Exactly what I was supposed to do. I was ready to show my most vulnerable side. Why oh why didn’t I stick to all the walls around me. I am a mess now.
I started something. I am not the one who gives up easily. But I got smacked hard. Nevertheless I don’t think it’ll stop me. I will recover from this. I will get out of this and probably persue what I started.
If only I knew how to do, to avoid the same errors.
Smack me with your whole group/clique. I am prepared for it. I wished I could say I don’t care, but I do because lots of people in the group mean something to me too. This scares me, scares me because for the first time in life I discovered a genuine feeling of proximity to people. Even with the mileage.
Call me a stalker. You know I am not. Just.don’t.fucking.panic. Nor will I. We’ll get over this and win this our battle.
19 have made me smarter ↓
1 Jade // Aug 20, 2006 at 2:44 am// View all comments by Jade//
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Not to sound presumptuous, but I think I know exactly what you’re going through. I have been there, and I am sure I’ll be there again too. Hang in there, my friend. While, my life has been crazy hectic (and falling in around me sort of) I enjoy it here, I’ve enjoyed you, and I do want to get to know you!
Oh, and I swear I wouldn’t smack you unless you asked me to, nicely. ;-)
Hey, if you figure out how to avoid the same errors, would ya let me in on the secret too please?
2 Franky // Aug 20, 2006 at 2:50 am// View all comments by Franky//
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Jade, if I discover that, I will blog about and kick ass of all those damn impersonnal alisters. :D
I’ll even write an howto-not-make-the-same-errors and will send it to my shrink too.
3 Rik // Aug 20, 2006 at 6:35 pm// View all comments by Rik//
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I admit that I tend to lurk, but the way I look at it, lurkers are a better measure of good blogging than commenters are.
Think about it. Anyone can generate interest in their site by saying controversial things and encouraging the world to engage in lively debate, people are always looking for an excuse to open their mouths and share their opinion.
However, to be read just because people want to hear what you have to say or because they like you for who you are and NOT because they want to add their two cents about the topic du jour is something else entirely.
Still, one should always take care to not share too much with people who can’t–or won’t–appreciate what you share.
4 Franky // Aug 20, 2006 at 6:44 pm// View all comments by Franky//
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5 Rik // Aug 20, 2006 at 7:50 pm// View all comments by Rik//
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I don’t think it’s strange that you finding yourself sharing more online than IRL, it’s basic human psychology.
It’s easier to share your innermost when you’re pretty sure it’s not going to come back and bite you on the butt, and because “face-to-face” relationships can get real complicated, real fast, it can be easier to formulate relationships online because of the layer of anonymity the internet provides.
6 Franky // Aug 20, 2006 at 8:00 pm// View all comments by Franky//
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A dream…
I am sure that it all would have been less of a mess without blog. But I’ll fight for what started to grow… if only I knew how.
7 Jade // Aug 20, 2006 at 9:23 pm// View all comments by Jade//
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I agree with all of what Rik has had to say.
I know, for me, it’s easier to share more in my blog than I do IRL, even though much of the same folks I see IRL read my blog too. While, I’m not afraid of any kind of face to face confrontations, when we’re talking about my inner most feelings, I find it much easier to write them than to speak them or have some sort of face to face discussion about them.
I would much rather see that most of my readers are reading via feeds than having a high comment count number. Comments don’t mean as much in a lot of ways because most of the time they are just coming from folks who want others to come to their sites. However, I do know that most all of my commenters comment because they want me to know they agree, disagree, what have you regarding something I wrote. I wish I knew how to see how many folks were subscribed to my blog via feeds, but in all honesty, my stats don’t mean shit to me.
If on some level I can touch someone’s emotions some how, either through a giggle or two, relating to something I’ve said, or make someone think or feel somehow, then I guess I’ve done what I’ve come to do. Connecting with people, isn’t that what humans crave?
As far as shit coming back to bite me in the ass, well, yea it happens a lot. The way I see it though, it’s going to happen no matter what and to me it’s the reaction I give that is important. Sometimes I can handle it gracefully, other times I can’t , but either way I learn something. Much of the time I will look back through my archives (especially when I’m feeling like I should just close up shop and quit the blog) and realize that my own blog helps me to see myself in objective eyes. I can see the areas in which I’ve grown, or those in which I have not, and can then decide what areas of myself I need to work on and which ones I am proud of myself for.
8 the constant // Aug 20, 2006 at 9:24 pm// View all comments by the constant//
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First of all should you even be concerned with this? My estimation of blogging comes down to, there two types of blogs. One, that have a purpose or are about something. Or two, aren’t about anything at all. Take my blog for example, rarely updated, non-sensecal, and has no real information or purpose to impart. No real commentary on the topics of the world. I use it to let loose chaotic ramblings of my mind.
Opposed to that are the mommy bloggers, the reviewers, the news feeds, the politico’s, etc. They all have a purpose a focus, whether it is their children, the lastest device, or the state of globalization. So it just comes down to a choice. Create or renew the true focus of the blog and impart that information or don’t, and have a fluid expression of your daily thoughts and baggage. The “purpose” blog, be concerned about the quality of content and the comments of your readership. The “personal” blog, don’t give a damn what other people think and do what you want, the amount of people who read your blog doesn’t matter.
9 Franky // Aug 20, 2006 at 9:54 pm// View all comments by Franky//
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10 RW // Aug 21, 2006 at 1:25 am// View all comments by RW//
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Like the Constant, there, it all depends on what camp you put yourself in.
I’ve had it with political blogs (and did one for a few years) - they’re mostly just posturing. In the blogs that just go random they may look jumbled and silly and self-indulgent - but every once in a while they come up with a little gem, or something just plain hilarious. Because they didn’t have the pretense of having a “Purpose” and just let things fly.
franky - I used to be part of the publishing world long ago. I saw a lot of talent tossed because it wasn’t “marketable.” The rise of The Blog should demonstrate to anyone watching that there are some talented people out there.
And you’re one of them.
For myself, I try to just make a joke or say something halfway funny when I comment on other people’s blogs. I don’t do well with “oh dear, I feel for you kid” stuff, even if that’s what I’m thinking. Sometimes I just don’t have a quip. Doesn’t mean I’m not reading, though.
11 Franky // Aug 21, 2006 at 1:56 am// View all comments by Franky//
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RW : Thanks. :)
I know I should work my stuff more, and even digg into my archives and rewrite everything. Had exactly this same topic in a mail conversation today. I am pleased to notice that little by little my writing gets better, because I regret not to write in Dutch or French, two languages I really play with, anymore.
The compliments really flatter me though.
I totally agree on The Rise of The Blog. There is a lot of talent out there, one just has too find it. Here again I will point to 9rules, in my eyes the best directory/network nowadays.
Not that long ago, I registered the domain blog-elite.net to feature great blogs I discovered, but time and life kept this project on the long todo-list so far.
12 Jade // Aug 21, 2006 at 2:04 am// View all comments by Jade//
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I think you should let “blog-elite.net” flow, Franky. Move it from the bottom of the to-do list towards the top. I am sure there are many who read you who would like to give you a hand. I know, for me, finding blogs is hard. Well, blogs that I’d actually read, not the ones who win the ‘popularity’ contests…..
13 Franky // Aug 21, 2006 at 2:30 am// View all comments by Franky//
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14 Franky // Aug 21, 2006 at 2:36 am// View all comments by Franky//
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Can anyone register this as the shortest run-on sentence ever?
15 Jade // Aug 21, 2006 at 3:04 am// View all comments by Jade//
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Well, you know, topic is relative, now isn’t it? lol
Life? What’s that? Bills? I don’t think I want to pay bills anymore….(excerpt, Office Space - the movie)…
BTW, you really need a comment preview or something so I can make sure I’m making sense when I comment here! :-P
Meh. Ya gotta start somewhere dontcha???
Just sayin….. ;-)
16 Franky // Aug 21, 2006 at 3:18 am// View all comments by Franky//
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Comment preview reinstaured. I had deactivated the preview-option, because I wanted to work with markdown/textile. Which would mean you all have to learn a new way to make stuff bold, italic aso. ROFLMAO! :D
17 Jade // Aug 21, 2006 at 3:29 am// View all comments by Jade//
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I’m not so good at learnin’ stuff! Don’t mess with my head like that! :P
p.s.
LMFAO @ “you wrote the following errors”
I’m off topic, ain’t I?
18 Franky // Aug 21, 2006 at 3:33 am// View all comments by Franky//
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Off topic? You asked for! And now I am going to enjoy 3 hours of sleep before another day starts.
19 Avitable // Aug 21, 2006 at 1:24 pm// View all comments by Avitable//
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You are enlightened according to the principles of the Church of Holy Avitableness and, accordingly, will be blessed with riches and love for the rest of your life. You just have to donate a million dollars to the church coffers first. :)