Am I Famous Now…

I am damn tired. That can only mean one thing. Thoughts, thoughts and even more thoughts. Sounds like I will have to warn some mmorons because I will probably piss of people. Once more. Now the nice thing with those moron warnings is that they stick those people to the screen and make them read the whole post. Not my fault. This is gonna be once more a ’stream of thoughts’. Screw the grammar parts and even the spell checker might not be used. And one more warning, this post will probably be long. Damn long.

Today was a really funny strange day. At work I had to ‘pay my supervisor’ one more visit. Damn guys I love you, never thought you were that interested in my blog. The reason this time was the Everest and my charity engagement. Those big corpos really care about charity and suddenly I was the ‘beloved’ guy. Of course I could change my hours if I was that active for charity and even an ‘eventual trip’ to the Everest would benefit any kind of support. Funds could be raised. But my problem is that I am really worn out lately since I work there. Months ago I wrote here I didn’t want to be that competitive anymore. I didn’t and still don’t like the atmosphere at work. Why ?

I want to party, have fun and enjoy my job. Not be surrounded by a bunch of fools nerds enjoying the ‘hunt for intruders’. No I want to joke and fool around at work. Some people might feel like saying that no one wants to party with me because I am one sick bastard. Too sad if you don’t want to pierce through the shield and just behave in your typical ‘looking for pity’ way. I don’t give a damn about you in that case. Blame me for building my own opinion after a while and judge you. Maybe you should really see the movie ‘54′ that one could have been based on me. You could understand better how I feel/think/behave.

But back to ‘work’. The months I have been working for that company have been really hard. Not that I didn’t enjoy ‘being a nerd’ but this daily battle for being the best, the fastest and other shit. It just is not my thing. I like ‘fun’. It really is time for me to move on. So I had to thank them once more for offering me to stay. Cool guys, but I prefer being happy. It all resulted in me losing my ‘efficiency’ and needing loads of time to finish projects lately. I will take on every project, just like before. Just don’t ask me how long I will be motivated. I takes me ages to finish something and I just hate it. I damn hate it.

Luckily lately I really like this place. Yes my blog is becoming really important to me. I had never thought that I would share one day as much as private information in a public place as I do here. What I even like more are all the dumbfucks complaining about my grammar. Yes it is no secret that people hate me nor is it that I do like internet drama. I love flame wars and have been trying for weeks to flame Moby. Just.fucking.damn.hard.with.no.comments.allowed. No seriously, everytime I have to read a comment about my grammar I get that much of satisfaction out of those silly poor people judging me on my fourth language. Above all I never claim(ed) to be a writer I just ‘let my thoughts flow’ in here and type them as they come. Thank you for the giggles you give me day after day. Every time again. I love you people. Just too bad you are too dumb and uninteresting to start a flame war with.

Other people get upset when I am honest and tell how I perceive them. Too bad get over it. I am just too damn lazy to analyze your cries for pity once more. Every single time I saw you, all the attention needed to go your way. Bad luck I don’t play that game. BUT that doesn’tmean that I can’t offer you to help you with technical stuff. If now you refuse a totally hacked and optimized software for a silly price bad luck. But what is even ‘more sad’ is that you just do not tell people what you think of them when they ask you ‘if you ignore them’. No it is a lot better to whine in your own corner, the corner that gives you what you want. I call that egoistic egocentric and sorry that I do not say what you like. Sorry that I build my own opinion and even stand for that one publicly. I would send you a mail of this post, but I know that other ‘hiding’ people will acknowledge you of it. That saves me some time. Thanks for that. But most of all thanks for denying my ‘technical help’. Like I wrote before I have huge problems lately to finish my projects.

Now all go gossipp and fluster in your hideaway about what a bastard I am.

Fuck this post is long already and I actually want to rant even more. Maybe next time though. Now I have to take care of the feelings of one of my best friends. Some one who lives in a world 8 hours behind me. Some one I love and that damn time difference kills me.