Where lately I have been posting more personal entries, entries from my past, I need a little break from this. Right at the moment I am dealing with emotions.
The bad thing about emotions is how vulnerable they can make one and last weeks I have allowed myself to feel, more than I should have. Now I pay for this.
Although a roller coaster, the few weeks when I allowed and opened myself surely were nice, and could have been very promising. Sadly the actual timing and the distance wasn’t correct.
All together those weeks were a fucking mess. Great moments will stay in memory tho. But right now the other moments control my thoughts.
The few times in life I showed myself have so far ended up in new episodes of my road trip. I can feel the urge to take off, leave everything behind and pick a random destination now. And leave.
But I won’t in the next days (yet). My friend comes to visit me, and we will check out some more houses. Hopefully that will distract me. And hopefully I don’t end up buying one.
I am looking forward to post more to my mini-bio and other things in a near future. Maybe this blog will continue to evolve in the more personal way, maybe not.
And yes, I know I should stop behaving this pathetically. Exactly that is what I will work at, so I need new/more projects.
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1 Lisa // Nov 9, 2006 at 2:50 am// View all comments by Lisa//
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Oh you wouldn’t be you if you weren’t so all over the place. It keeps us all on the edge and in our place. We…well maybe I need that kind of discipline.
Eat, drink and be merry…then spill the beans. I want more gossip, I mean dirt, I mean biographical information.